I feel like we are still adjusting to having 3 little humans who depend on us - as soon as I figure out a routine, one or two or all of them change on me & my perfect plans are out the window. If you know me at all, you can imagine how my nerves have reacted in some of those moments. But, I finally had a come-to-Jesus with myself & have decided to CHILL IT OUT. I have to constantly remind myself that I have three children 2 years old & younger & extend myself a little grace.
I will most likely not be on time, even if I get up 3 hours before we're supposed to be somewhere because someone will puke on themselves or on me right before we walk out the door. And that's not the end of the world, nothing is that important that I spend the entire time we're getting ready rushing & yelling & huffing. They will not all always act perfect & that's okay because neither do I - especially when I am tired &/or hungry. Our home may be a little loud &/or a little scrambled between 5 & 8 every night, we may not be able to go out to eat with friends after church every Sunday, & we may be constantly tired. All of these things have been an adjustment for the people pleaser, perfectionist in me but I finally had a come to Jesus with myself & decided that I want to ENJOY this fleeting season instead of just enduring it. Because most of the time, my home is loud between 5 & 8 every night because we have music blasting & are having a dance party in our living room. And instead of rushing through a meal at a restaurant, true friends come by our house after church to play in the living room floor with PE, making memories I'll never forget. And yes, I am tired but there isn't anything like being tired for a good reason or cuddling in a warm bed with your little people stroking your hair or cuddling in to your sweet spot.
Prater Ellis has her moments of jealousy but overall, she loves her baby sisters & wishes she could do more with them. I cannot wait until they are all bit enough to play together, I see lots of arguments obviously, but also lots of fun! She is just so fun - she's learned LOTS of new words lately & is slowly learning their meanings which makes for some interesting conversations with her. I love that we can talk to teach other throughout the day now! She is so joyful & hardheaded & loud & silly & repetitive & excited & stubborn - I have to tone her down sometimes but I'm learning when to pick my battles & when to let her be Prater Ellis. And because I am learning to be less rigid, we are having so much more fun! She's also started saying 'pretty please' & yes, it just about kills us all. She managed a 'bless her heart' to Hatley earlier & I almost stroked. My job here is done.
The twins are SO different - from each other & from PE. I mean, obviously that's normal but it still just amazes me. They are still so tiny, just now moving in to 0-3 month clothes. Their 4 month appointment is this week & I'm thinking they may be around 9 or 10 pounds. It's so funny to see them attempting to do 4 month old baby things but still be so small. Hatley is such a happy baby, she'll flash a smile at you quicker than you can catch it. Her cry is absolutely pitiful but thankfully I usually only hear it when she's hungry. She's still waking about once a night to nurse, she seems to be much smaller than Giles so I think she's trying to catch up. She is definitely the middle child - I can't explain it, she just is. She has mastered rolling from her front to her back. Giles is so no-nonsense. She's starting to smile more but it takes a whole lot to make it happen, she usually just looks at us like we are totally annoying her. She usually fusses to be held & has absolutely no interest in rolling over - she wants to be held in a standing position all the time, she wants to skip everything & go straight to walking. She's fine if she's fine but if she isn't, she goes from 0 to 60 in the speed of light! If she doesn't turn out to be fiery red head, I will be shocked!
I am still breast feeding them & it's going great! I forgot how time consuming & how much of a commitment it is but for me, it's a worthy challenge. I've managed to lose 5 more pounds in the past week, thanks to a growth spurt on their behalf. I'm hoping all of the extra goodness keeps them all sickies free this winter - thankfully we've been pretty lucky on that department with PE & I hope to continue the streak with the Twinkies. Oh, & I cut my hair. Love it! I was pulling my long hair up on top of my hair all the time because I didn't have time to fix it & it's heaviness was giving me headaches - this short hair is awesome sauce! I can get completely ready in 20 minutes & that's what this Momma needed!
And bless Aaron's heart, he's hanging in here with all of our estrogen! I kid, he's the best. He has the patience of Job & is so great to ask me how he can help me all the time, do chores that he hates (unload the dishwasher), run my feet at the end of a long day, & he puts all he has in to loving on the little ladies in our house.
Life is busy & wild but oh, I love it & wouldn't have it any other way! It's such a blessing that I never saw coming!
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